Dating, Emotional processing, Therapy

I Found The Words.

Are you tired of hearing from me this week? I have had a lot to work through and I am thankful you have been hear to get me through it. I prayed for the words to tell the small boy he would not be seeing Mr. X and his kids anymore. And my prayers were… Continue reading I Found The Words.

Emotional processing, new relationship

It’s Not Just Me.

I picked the small boy up from his Dad’s house today. I am looking forward to the extra noise in our home. I am excited for another week with him. What I wasn’t expecting was what he said the moment he got in my Jeeps. I ask if he had a good time at his… Continue reading It’s Not Just Me.

Dating, Emotional processing

The ladder worked.

It’s hard to dance when you are standing on a wall. I tiptoed up there for quite a while. I have to be honest, that wall blocked the warmth of the sun. Years of trust issues and hurt made my world a dark place. When I finally got the courage to climb that wall, it… Continue reading The ladder worked.

Dating, Emotional processing

I am the girl on the wall.

Forward motion is hard when you are tied to your pasts. It is always there. There are always reminders. There are regrets and resentments and victories and celebration. But, it is always a part of you. The past molded and shaped who I am. It also built walls. Tall, treacherous, sturdy walls. It built a… Continue reading I am the girl on the wall.

Emotional processing, Mourning a Love One

Dad, One year ago…

One year ago, today... It seems like a minute... It seems like an eternity... One year ago, today, may have been the hardest thing I have experienced in my life. I lost my hero. I lost beer drinking buddy. I lost my friend. I lost the only man that I knew would never hurt me.… Continue reading Dad, One year ago…

Dating, Emotional processing, Self Improvement, Therapy

Intuition or anxiety?

Did you ever meet someone that seems so perfect? And then, they are not? They make you question yourself and your own judgement of others? When their words don't match their actions and you listen to the action, when all along you should have been listening to the words? I had sirens ringing in my… Continue reading Intuition or anxiety?

Emotional processing, Personal Views, Self Improvement

Build. Burn. Build.

Life has ups and downs and twist and turns. Just when you think you should go left, something forces you right. Just when you start to go up, something knocks you down. It can be crazy and confusing and fun and exhilarating. It can be fulfilling and heartbreaking. Have you ever met someone that had… Continue reading Build. Burn. Build.

Adventure

Why all the sparkle?

When my life was already busy, I jumped in an opportunity that added more work. Most people thought it was crazy. My Dad had just been diagnosed with brain cancer, the company I have worked at for years was in the midst of being bought, my marriage was not exactly perfect and I had a… Continue reading Why all the sparkle?

Adventure, Dating, Emotional processing

Don’t let the fear win.

The other day, I read one of those "feel good" social media posts that said, "She felt the fear and did it anyway." It spoke to me in so many ways. Back in 2019, I made a promise to stop listening to the "what if" but they are still winning in most aspects of my… Continue reading Don’t let the fear win.

Adventure, Dating, Emotional processing

What are you looking for?

Such a strange questions. What are you looking for? It seems to be a common question that I get ask when on a date and getting to know someone. How do you answer that? I am not sure I can. I think I am a person that will know it, when I find it? There… Continue reading What are you looking for?