One of the hardest things to do in life is to move forward when there is no closure to the past. It is like a book that is missing the last few pages. No explanation. No reason. No answers. Just an abrupt end before the story was over. In my heart of hearts, I know… Continue reading If I could say one last thing…
Are you tired of hearing from me this week? I have had a lot to work through and I am thankful you have been hear to get me through it. I prayed for the words to tell the small boy he would not be seeing Mr. X and his kids anymore. And my prayers were… Continue reading I Found The Words.
Today, I should have been snuggled on the couch watching football with my love, enjoying the last moments of my holiday break. Today, I should have been laughing and talking about what the new year had in store for us. Today, I should have been making plans for our kids next weekend. Today, I should… Continue reading I give myself 12 Days.
I stayed quiet about the pandemic. Everything that needed to be said was being said. I was focusing on my life, my son, my job and my new relationship. I was investing in my future. I was enjoying the downtime. I was also missing friends and family. I was looking for something or someone to… Continue reading Goodbye to 2020.
It’s hard to dance when you are standing on a wall. I tiptoed up there for quite a while. I have to be honest, that wall blocked the warmth of the sun. Years of trust issues and hurt made my world a dark place. When I finally got the courage to climb that wall, it… Continue reading The ladder worked.
What happens when the past comes back? Do you ever look at someone and know that your road will not be easy? Baggage. Suitcases full. You know they are there. You know they are loaded and heavy. You know that they will have to be unpacked. You know that it would be easier to keep… Continue reading There is something unexplainable.
Forward motion is hard when you are tied to your pasts. It is always there. There are always reminders. There are regrets and resentments and victories and celebration. But, it is always a part of you. The past molded and shaped who I am. It also built walls. Tall, treacherous, sturdy walls. It built a… Continue reading I am the girl on the wall.
Did you ever meet someone that seems so perfect? And then, they are not? They make you question yourself and your own judgement of others? When their words don't match their actions and you listen to the action, when all along you should have been listening to the words? I had sirens ringing in my… Continue reading Intuition or anxiety?
The other day, I read one of those "feel good" social media posts that said, "She felt the fear and did it anyway." It spoke to me in so many ways. Back in 2019, I made a promise to stop listening to the "what if" but they are still winning in most aspects of my… Continue reading Don’t let the fear win.
Adventures in dating gets more interesting by the moment. I am learning that most people are not what they seem. If it feels off, it probably is. There have been a lot of laughs, a lot of awkward moments and a heck of a lot of "are you serious?" moments. At some point, I want… Continue reading Adventures in dating.