I picked the small boy up from his Dad’s house today. I am looking forward to the extra noise in our home. I am excited for another week with him. What I wasn’t expecting was what he said the moment he got in my Jeeps. I ask if he had a good time at his… Continue reading It’s Not Just Me.
Tag: choose joy
When happy finds you.
Life has a way of surprising you. We are in the midst of a pandemic. Life has changed so much in the last few month. I miss parks with my small boy. I miss our Saturday adventures. I miss our trips to the water park. I miss dancing in a bar. I miss going out… Continue reading When happy finds you.
The ladder worked.
It’s hard to dance when you are standing on a wall. I tiptoed up there for quite a while. I have to be honest, that wall blocked the warmth of the sun. Years of trust issues and hurt made my world a dark place. When I finally got the courage to climb that wall, it… Continue reading The ladder worked.
There is always joy.
Find joy. I preach this to myself daily. Enjoy where you are at. I am striving to enjoy every moment of my solo days. I am trying not to think about being lonely and think about the opportunity that is in front of me. No phase is perfect and if I dwell on the negative,… Continue reading There is always joy.
Raising the red flags.
Dating is hard and weird and strange. When you have been out of the scene for 13 years and never thought you'd date again, it is an awkward transition. It's hard to look for something when you don't know what you really want. Dating has changed so much in 13 years. In the age of… Continue reading Raising the red flags.
I’m Still Here.
I sit here, alone, at my kitchen table staring at the old stuffed sheep that the small boy carries from room to room. It is the last day of 2019. This year is ending so differently than I had expected. On this day last year, I was planning trips for my family. I was gearing… Continue reading I’m Still Here.
So much is running through my mind. The time is late and I should be sleeping but the questions keep flying at me. What am I doing? Where am I going? What direction should I take? They say that holidays are a time of reflection. A time to look back on the past year. That… Continue reading Moving forward.
This year has brought more tears than I care to count. Tears brought on by stress, loss and heartbreak. Tears that made me want to crawl in bed and never leave. Tears that were pent up and held back as I was slowly breaking inside. Tears, I was afraid to release because those flood gates… Continue reading 88 days.
Busy, busy, busy…
Life has been so busy that I have not had the time to sit down and formulate my thoughts. I am realizing without putting them down they are whirling in my brain like a tornado. Spinning. Crashing. And being thrown at innocent victims. Stress is high and I am working to get it under control.… Continue reading Busy, busy, busy…
I can do this.
I am adjusting to my new life. I have spent a lot of time during the last 8 weeks wondering how I would manage on my own. Can I handle the bills? Keep the big house in order? Afford all the fun and extras I want for my little guy? Well, this first mini vacation… Continue reading I can do this.