Emotional processing, Mourning a Love One

Dad, One year ago…

One year ago, today... It seems like a minute... It seems like an eternity... One year ago, today, may have been the hardest thing I have experienced in my life. I lost my hero. I lost beer drinking buddy. I lost my friend. I lost the only man that I knew would never hurt me.… Continue reading Dad, One year ago…

Emotional processing, Mourning a Love One

I’m Still Here.

I sit here, alone, at my kitchen table staring at the old stuffed sheep that the small boy carries from room to room. It is the last day of 2019. This year is ending so differently than I had expected. On this day last year, I was planning trips for my family. I was gearing… Continue reading I’m Still Here.

Emotional processing, Mourning a Love One, Personal Views

88 days.

This year has brought more tears than I care to count. Tears brought on by stress, loss and heartbreak. Tears that made me want to crawl in bed and never leave. Tears that were pent up and held back as I was slowly breaking inside. Tears, I was afraid to release because those flood gates… Continue reading 88 days.

Emotional processing

I am just a women.

I am just a woman, a mother, trying to make it through this moment. Sometimes, everything is just too much and the crying just starts out of nowhere. No warning. It is a lot for one woman to hold. We hold our children, hold down our careers, hold down the fort, hold our heads high… Continue reading I am just a women.

Mourning a Love One

Let’s help them grieve.

In Memory of Jace Alexander Lowry."Jace would have been 11 months old today. We would have started the #CountdownToOne by posting pictures every week, planning a birthday party and reflecting on how he has changed our lives in the most amazing way. Instead, we are dreading the #CountdownToOneYear. We are dreading the forever emptiness that’s… Continue reading Let’s help them grieve.

Emotional processing, Personal Views

Just 12 days…

My journey has been long. The hill has been steep and the crash has been rough. The last few months of my life have been the hardest I have ever been through. I have cried more tears than I knew my body held. I lost my Dad two and a half months ago and it… Continue reading Just 12 days…

Mourning a Love One, Uncategorized

I miss my dad!

So, for Mother's Day, my husband got me a beautiful Pandora charm in honor of my father. On Mother's Day, I cried. At some point, every day, I cry. Just for a moment, but I do. I miss my Dad. Living four states away, I didn't see him as often as I would like, but… Continue reading I miss my dad!


Time for a little brother…

Those words.... If only you knew how much they hurt. Seemingly innocent, but everytime someone says it, it's like having a dagger stabbed in my heart.  The other day, I was in the checkout line with Riley. He was chatting away when the older lady behind me said, “He’s so cute, are your others at… Continue reading Time for a little brother…


Turn on your light.

The grind of day to day sometimes gets the best of me. I get so into making it through that I forget to make it fun. I forget to see the little things. I forget to protect my shine. Even in the worst moments, there is sparkle. You just have to use a light to… Continue reading Turn on your light.