Emotional processing, Marriage Struggles

Punitive Damage.

"A person who trusts no one now, once trusted someone too much" -unknown I read this a few days go while scrolling through Facebook and a truer statement could not have been made. Trust is a tricky thing. You only have so much to give and once your trust is gone, it is hard to… Continue reading Punitive Damage.

Adventure, Emotional processing

What if…

Spontaneity is not something that I am known for. I am an over-thinker. I am an over-analyzer. I am a what-iffer. (Yes, I made up that word.) I have a tendency to live in the zone of "what if" and have missed out on some really amazing things. Missing out leads to a lot of… Continue reading What if…

Addiction Recovery, Emotional processing, Marriage Struggles

Because of a small boy.

I thought walking away from my marriage was one of the hardest thing I would ever do in my life. I realize, now, that moving on is even harder when you know that you will spend the rest of child's life tied to the person you are walking away from. There is no out. There… Continue reading Because of a small boy.

Emotional processing

I am just a women.

I am just a woman, a mother, trying to make it through this moment. Sometimes, everything is just too much and the crying just starts out of nowhere. No warning. It is a lot for one woman to hold. We hold our children, hold down our careers, hold down the fort, hold our heads high… Continue reading I am just a women.

Emotional processing, Uncategorized

Busy, busy, busy…

Life has been so busy that I have not had the time to sit down and formulate my thoughts. I am realizing without putting them down they are whirling in my brain like a tornado. Spinning. Crashing. And being thrown at innocent victims. Stress is high and I am working to get it under control.… Continue reading Busy, busy, busy…

Uncategorized

I can do this.

I am adjusting to my new life. I have spent a lot of time during the last 8 weeks wondering how I would manage on my own. Can I handle the bills? Keep the big house in order? Afford all the fun and extras I want for my little guy? Well, this first mini vacation… Continue reading I can do this.

Mourning a Love One

Let’s help them grieve.

In Memory of Jace Alexander Lowry."Jace would have been 11 months old today. We would have started the #CountdownToOne by posting pictures every week, planning a birthday party and reflecting on how he has changed our lives in the most amazing way. Instead, we are dreading the #CountdownToOneYear. We are dreading the forever emptiness that’s… Continue reading Let’s help them grieve.

Emotional processing, Marriage Struggles

I have much more important things…

When faced with adversity and the lack of a good answer, a very common response is "I have much, more important things to do." As if your question is not important. In reality, that response usually comes from one of three things, the need to feel better about one's self, the need to feel important… Continue reading I have much more important things…

Emotional processing

When you see the shine.

When you put in the hard work, you reap the rewards. A day spent cleaning rewards me with a shiny home. An afternoon spent washing the Jeep rewards me with a shiny jeep. A few months searching your soul rewards you with a shiny you. It takes work, reflection, support and tears but when you… Continue reading When you see the shine.

Emotional processing

Today is better.

After my separation sucks pity party, I put my big girl panties on and started down the trail to find my sparkle, again. I spent the the last few days enjoying my family while they were here from Pennsylvania. I recharged my batteries. My sparkle, it was never really gone, I just lost it for… Continue reading Today is better.