Adventure, Dating

Adventures in dating.

Adventures in dating gets more interesting by the moment. I am learning that most people are not what they seem. If it feels off, it probably is. There have been a lot of laughs, a lot of awkward moments and a heck of a lot of "are you serious?" moments. At some point, I want… Continue reading Adventures in dating.

Adventure, Dating, Emotional processing

What are you looking for?

Such a strange questions. What are you looking for? It seems to be a common question that I get ask when on a date and getting to know someone. How do you answer that? I am not sure I can. I think I am a person that will know it, when I find it? There… Continue reading What are you looking for?

Emotional processing

There is always joy.

Find joy. I preach this to myself daily. Enjoy where you are at. I am striving to enjoy every moment of my solo days. I am trying not to think about being lonely and think about the opportunity that is in front of me. No phase is perfect and if I dwell on the negative,… Continue reading There is always joy.

Adventure, Dating

Raising the red flags.

Dating is hard and weird and strange. When you have been out of the scene for 13 years and never thought you'd date again, it is an awkward transition. It's hard to look for something when you don't know what you really want. Dating has changed so much in 13 years. In the age of… Continue reading Raising the red flags.

Emotional processing, Mourning a Love One

I’m Still Here.

I sit here, alone, at my kitchen table staring at the old stuffed sheep that the small boy carries from room to room. It is the last day of 2019. This year is ending so differently than I had expected. On this day last year, I was planning trips for my family. I was gearing… Continue reading I’m Still Here.

Dating, Emotional processing

All the baggage.

When you are 45 and single, you quickly realize that at this point in life, anyone that is single comes with baggage. We are all little damaged. We have all been through some muck. The other thing I am realizing is that it was no ones fault. At least, not most of the men that… Continue reading All the baggage.

Emotional processing, Marriage Struggles, Mourning a Love One

Moving forward.

So much is running through my mind. The time is late and I should be sleeping but the questions keep flying at me. What am I doing? Where am I going? What direction should I take? They say that holidays are a time of reflection. A time to look back on the past year. That… Continue reading Moving forward.

Dating, Emotional processing

There is always a reason.

You never know why you meet someone. You never know how long they will be in your life. What I do know is that God has a reason for everything, so each person, good or bad, was put in your life for a reason. Was it to learn a lesson? Teach you something? Brighten your… Continue reading There is always a reason.

Emotional processing, Marriage Struggles

Punitive Damage.

"A person who trusts no one now, once trusted someone too much" -unknown I read this a few days go while scrolling through Facebook and a truer statement could not have been made. Trust is a tricky thing. You only have so much to give and once your trust is gone, it is hard to… Continue reading Punitive Damage.

Emotional processing, Suicide awareness, Therapy

Who needs therapy?

When my dad was here and he was going through treatments and having tests, I set appointment reminders in my phone to call and follow up. I always put positive reminders. "Call Dad for the Good News." Or "Call to hear Dad's Cancer Free Results." There were times I would forget the set reminder and… Continue reading Who needs therapy?