Emotional processing, Marriage Struggles

Happy Anniv….oh wait.

Today is a day that I have not look forward to since my separation a month and a half ago. It's my wedding anniversary, but not just any anniversary. The 10 year one. A decade. We made it almost a decade, but we didn't. I couldn't, so I didn't. Today is not a celebration. Today… Continue reading Happy Anniv….oh wait.

Emotional processing, Marriage Struggles

One Month In.

It has been just over a month since my husband moved out and we started sharing custody of our little guy. What a month it has been. I have had some of the best times of my life and some of the hardest moments. The adjustment to this new life is different. It's hard to… Continue reading One Month In.

Emotional processing, Finding My Sparkle, Surviving Separation, Working Mom

Today is better.

After my separation sucks pity party, I put my big girl panties on and started down the trail to find my sparkle, again. I spent the the last few days enjoying my family while they were here from Pennsylvania. I recharged my batteries. My sparkle, it was never really gone, I just lost it for… Continue reading Today is better.

Emotional processing

How did I get here?

I have spent a lot of time pondering my new status in life. Separated. How did I get here? What do I do now that I am here? It is such a weird transitional place to be. You are married but you live your lives separately. You have separate homes. Separate finances. Separate schedules. And… Continue reading How did I get here?

Emotional processing

Write your own story.

We move through life at such a rapid pace that sometimes we just exist from day to day without really living. We do what needs to get done and don't think about the impact we are making. Small day to day actions can change your life. They can change your future, yet we do them… Continue reading Write your own story.

Emotional processing

Me time.

This concept of "me time" was so foreign. As a full time working mom who runs a little Color Street nail business (Shop Color Street) on the side, "me time" was few and far between. I relished the few minutes of quiet on a Saturday morning, sitting on my patio with a cup of coffee… Continue reading Me time.

Emotional processing, Marriage Struggles

A whole week.

My sweet little boy left this morning for an entire week at the beach with his father. A whole week. I know this is the future but I have yet to go 7 days without seeing my child. Only once in his six and half years on earth have I ever been a away from… Continue reading A whole week.

Emotional processing

18 summers…

The other day someone mentioned that we only have 18 summers with our littles. This was the first time I had heard this and it made me incredibly sad. But, we have their whole lives? Nope, they have their whole lives. We get 18 until they flee the nest. 18 to make memories to last… Continue reading 18 summers…

Emotional processing, Personal Views

Just 12 days…

My journey has been long. The hill has been steep and the crash has been rough. The last few months of my life have been the hardest I have ever been through. I have cried more tears than I knew my body held. I lost my Dad two and a half months ago and it… Continue reading Just 12 days…

Addiction Recovery, Emotional processing, Marriage Struggles

Omission is a lie.

Some people don't come right out and lie. They just omit the truth. They give you just enough truthful information to lead you to believe they are making the right choices and doing the right things. They only give you half the story. The other half, well, it is very important. Without it, you don't… Continue reading Omission is a lie.