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I can do this.

I am adjusting to my new life. I have spent a lot of time during the last 8 weeks wondering how I would manage on my own. Can I handle the bills? Keep the big house in order? Afford all the fun and extras I want for my little guy? Well, this first mini vacation… Continue reading I can do this.

color street, Emotional processing

When you see the shine.

When you put in the hard work, you reap the rewards. A day spent cleaning rewards me with a shiny home. An afternoon spent washing the Jeep rewards me with a shiny jeep. A few months searching your soul rewards you with a shiny you. It takes work, reflection, support and tears but when you… Continue reading When you see the shine.

Emotional processing, Marriage Struggles

Happy Anniv….oh wait.

Today is a day that I have not look forward to since my separation a month and a half ago. It's my wedding anniversary, but not just any anniversary. The 10 year one. A decade. We made it almost a decade, but we didn't. I couldn't, so I didn't. Today is not a celebration. Today… Continue reading Happy Anniv….oh wait.

color street, Emotional processing

Today is better.

After my separation sucks pity party, I put my big girl panties on and started down the trail to find my sparkle, again. I spent the the last few days enjoying my family while they were here from Pennsylvania. I recharged my batteries. My sparkle, it was never really gone, I just lost it for… Continue reading Today is better.

Emotional processing

How did I get here?

I have spent a lot of time pondering my new status in life. Separated. How did I get here? What do I do now that I am here? It is such a weird transitional place to be. You are married but you live your lives separately. You have separate homes. Separate finances. Separate schedules. And… Continue reading How did I get here?

Emotional processing

Me time.

This concept of "me time" was so foreign. As a full time working mom who runs a little Color Street nail business (Shop Color Street) on the side, "me time" was few and far between. I relished the few minutes of quiet on a Saturday morning, sitting on my patio with a cup of coffee… Continue reading Me time.

Emotional processing, Marriage Struggles

A whole week.

My sweet little boy left this morning for an entire week at the beach with his father. A whole week. I know this is the future but I have yet to go 7 days without seeing my child. Only once in his six and half years on earth have I ever been a away from… Continue reading A whole week.

Emotional processing, Finding My Sparkle, Parenting Struggles, Working Mom

18 summers…

The other day someone mentioned that we only have 18 summers with our littles. This was the first time I had heard this and it made me incredibly sad. But, we have their whole lives? Nope, they have their whole lives. We get 18 until they flee the nest. 18 to make memories to last… Continue reading 18 summers…

Emotional processing, Personal Views

Just 12 days…

My journey has been long. The hill has been steep and the crash has been rough. The last few months of my life have been the hardest I have ever been through. I have cried more tears than I knew my body held. I lost my Dad two and a half months ago and it… Continue reading Just 12 days…

Addiction Recovery, Emotional processing, Marriage Struggles

Omission is a lie.

Some people don't come right out and lie. They just omit the truth. They give you just enough truthful information to lead you to believe they are making the right choices and doing the right things. They only give you half the story. The other half, well, it is very important. Without it, you don't… Continue reading Omission is a lie.